Real talk, how do you know you're depressed?

I'm asking this for myself, I feel like a total piece of shit most of the time wihtout knowing why, without reasons. I've seen symptoms of depression online, I kinda match with these. I think I should see a doctor or some shit but they cost like hell and I don't even have the motivation to go out....

Hey! Woop woop, we reached 500 followers! And to celebrate that, I'm going to give 5 free drawings for you guys :P

NSFW inclueded! I'm drawing anything! The quality will be flat coulored with simple lineart ;)

Only requierements will be to follow me, and to give me instructions on the drawing you desire down below ;)

Thanks again guys :P